I felt a need to write this tonight. I have been keeping this to myself for a little bit. I started to learn Python and SQL to move my career into something different. Coding is something I have had some interest in, but I've always been intimidated to try to learn. Part of me was inspired to try it because I am tired of my job, and I want something where I feel like I'm doing more. I want a job that's better than some jabroni job where skills aren't needed. I feel like I'm too good and valuable to be in my job. I want a job where I have some flexibility in my schedule so that I can be in my daughter's life should I be needed, and not feel like I have to choose her or my job. That sounds a little fucked up, but there are days when I feel afraid of losing my job. I know it's not true, but my sense of obligation makes me feel like that. It's funny because I feel like I"m fighting two senses of obligations, which makes me a bad father I am doing that when it comes to my kid, she should be the choice no matter what.
My other inspiration to do this is to show my daughter that working hard, keeping trying when you fail or fall short, and giving your all are important things you have to do in life to get what you want. I want her to be proud of me when she thinks of me. I don't want to let her down and I want to be a role model for her. I am always worried about her, and it does make me a little too hard on her and too micro-managing, which I should be the total opposite. I just want to make her happy, and I want to be able to afford to give her and my wife the lives and happiness they both deserve.
I will say so far learning this stuff is tough, but also fun. I am learning from Codecademy, and their course is straightforward. it's super helpful and set up where you almost can't fail. Their courses will guide you through everything and will show you step-by-step what you did right or wrong. I have a long path to get through and a lot to learn, but with the resources and info Codecademy gives, on top of YouTube and the web/AI, I have gotten a lot of info and learned a lot.
My other big thing is I‘m trying to move a lot of stuff on the cloud to local storage. I bought a NAS drive and have been going through the arduous task of moving years of photos off of various services onto it. Google makes it a pain in the ass to do, but it's slowly but surely getting there. After my accounts, I have to help my wife with hers especially since she has a ton of photos of my kid on them. I plan that once I get all the photos onto the NAS, I will wipe the Google and iCloud drives to free up space and then unsubscribe from the extra storage (which is one reason I wanted to do this), and back up my photos via the NAS's photos app. I have a Synology NAS and the setup was smooth. Just have to get used to the learning curve while also waiting for the NAS to index and organize the photos. I also am moving all the files I have on iCloud and Google Drive onto it as well.