AH, another long ass time from writing.  I suck at getting around to it.  I have the ideas but don’t put them down.  I need to make myself better for that.  

So what’s been going on?  I accomplished something I am proud of: I drove to and from Florida with my family and neither the car nor the marriage fell apart.  It was a two-day trip both ways, and for the most part, the drive is a grind.  The worst states to drive through to me were the Carolinas.  First, the road is straight and has no turns, with nothing but trees lining the road.  It was a long, boring drive.  I especially have a problem with South Carolina because the traffic sucked-it was doing the accordion style of everyone bunching up and then speeding up.  Traffic would get so slow, I expected to see something on fire or covered with a sheet on the side of the road.  But neither thing happened.  My other issue is that I got a chip in my windshield driving through there, which made me mad.  

The good things about the trip were getting to eat at Cracker Barrels, rising South of the Border, and spending time with family we haven’t seen in about three years.  My daughter had a lot of fun seeing her cousin and enjoying Florida.  We all enjoyed Florida.  We didn’t fight, I didn’t lose my temper (almost did a couple of times, but didn’t), and we were in a better mood.  

When we came home, I felt sad.  The house is dark, so I should try to brighten it up with more lights. I just miss the feeling I had in Florida.  Everyone wasn’t on top of each other, unlike here in NY.  The houses are more modern, unlike the 100+year old one I’m in now.  I just think maybe it’s time for a change.  

I continue to try to change myself for the better.  I am trying to find better work, preferably remote work.  I am not getting younger and need to start making some moves.