Been a bit hasn't it?
ill start off with I should take a day off from work and have a "wacky day". A day where I unwind. For a while now I've been a bit too uptight, with the stresses on me. I should take a day and just "shut off" the brain and just go do something stupid.
Speaking of stress, I'll repeat this: don't wish cancer on anyone, it's a shitty thing to watch someone battle, let alone have. I've had to experience watching on the sidelines and it sometimes takes a lot out of me. But a positive thing of it is it shows me how tough a person can be, and it's a toughness we should aspire to be.
What sucks about some situations I am in is the lack a control I have in them. As someone who has been labeled a control freak, it's tough. I need to work on focusing my time and energy on thing I am in control of and not sweat what I can't. Believe me, that's one of the hardest things to say to myself: I'm not in control or can control everything in my life.
A couple weeks ao, my cousins put my late Aunt and Uncle's house up for sale. It was sad to hear about, since I have a lot of memories in that place (I'm sure not as sad as my cousins having to do it), I saw an online listing of it complete with pictures of the house, and a flood of good memories came back seeing each room in pictures. Funny part is most of the house I either never saw, or haven't seen in almost 30 years. It was still a nice trip down memory lane.
My goal of having a new job comes up at the end of June. It looks like a tough goal to reach, mostly due to me and mental blocks I'm feeling, but it's something I'm working to achieve. I'm going to try a more proactive approach and take more advantage of LinkedIn. Hopefully the job hunting mojo starts to build and I'll have a job that's more fitting of me, and one where I am not working for crumbs or feel so out of place.
The mind of a person is infinitely stronger than the body. I hope I can get my mind to feel and harness its power.